The Casting Dock

November blues

November has been a crazy month.
With the election, holidays, professional development days at work, an overnight field trip with the fifth grade at my school, hurricane Sandy, and an out-of-state wedding, I have not been in my school for a full five day work week all month. While the extra, unexpected days off are always welcome, I definitely feel thrown out of my routine.

It has been an unsettled month for me.
My thoughts are all jumbled up and I oftentimes have just not felt like myself.
Being the analyzer than I am, I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about all the different factors that have played into this sense of unsettling. And there are a lot. Some work stuff, some personal stuff, some situational stuff (I really do hate the cold), etc. But they all still feel like isolated pieces to a puzzle I have yet to solve.

We have done lots of fun things this month with lots of fabulous people (a wedding in Ohio; Thanksgiving split between family and friends, between Massachusetts and Maine; birthday celebrations; theater performances, etc.),
but still, I have not felt like myself.
I think this happens sometimes.
A natural cycle of ups and downs.
The downs certainly make you appreciate the ups more.
And there is always a lesson or two in the process.

Anyhow, in the midst of this unsettling, one thing keeps ringing true over and over again:
I am so unbelievably grateful for this guy.

He listens when I am needing to process; he brings me flowers to cheer me up; he does all the cooking and cleaning on days when I am feeling down; he makes me laugh when laughter feels far off.
His eyes and his actions echo his words.
Clearly and consistently.

He is a gem of a human being and I am so grateful for the last four years spent with him.

This year we had the rare treat of spending Thanksgiving morning just the two of us. A leisurely breakfast, Christmas lists organized for family, a pleasant run on my favorite route.
It was the best six hours of my month.

I was glad to close the book on November yesterday. Here’s too a cheer-filled December!

3 comments

1 whitney { 12.02.12 at 11:36 am }

its like we’re there in spirit…

2 Mama Logan { 12.03.12 at 7:51 am }

That guy you are grateful for . . . his father taught him well! Your words truly echo my feelings about his mentor and I am eternally grateful for the 32+ years I have spent with him. Believe me, it just gets better and better! Happy December!!!

3 Jer { 12.05.12 at 4:16 pm }

That aerial shot of the breakfast table is sublime. Although, I am not happy that my wife takes her coffee noticeably blacker than mine. Must’ve been something with the lighting…

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