Posts from — March 2012
It’s an “attitude of gratitude” kind of day.
Today I am grateful for…
Books/Bibles, coffee, and a comfy bed on a Sunday morning.
Plus this guy (and his beard).
All sweet, helpful, easy-going and consistent, setting an example of selflessness for me every day.
Truly a better person.
These guys are making a strong push for my favorite fruit, but I just don’t think they can surpass the mango anytime soon. I DEVOUR mango–fresh, frozen, blended, and dried. But I do love raspberries and I am chomping at the bit for “pick your own berries” season.
The two years we spent in Williamsburg doing the grad school thing and being newlyweds.
While I am SO thankful to be back in Massachusetts, I think fondly of this time and the foundation it created for our marriage.
Ummm, our UNBELIEVABLE weather the past week, providing me the opportunity to give a little shout out to my Texan roots wearing dresses with no leggings or hose in March! Seriously, this past week has been crazy beautiful up here. Super surreal 70-80 degree days, blasting sunshine, peaceful and salty sea breeze.
Completely insane March weather.
A relaxing stroll around Newburyport with this gal whom I just adore!
Very authentic, easy-going, and just fun–a nice mix for me!
My dad coming for a little visit!
I very rarely see my dad these days considering he lives in Texas and we only make it down there about once a year. I was thinking the other day that I probably see him about 6 days out of the 365 in the year. So it was nice to tack on a couple extra this year. We enjoyed the weather on a sunny walk, had a nice dinner, and played a little racquetball/crafted a work-out together.
Oh my do I ever love speedball. I actually love pretty much any kind of team sport. I would play sports every day if I could find people to play with me…it’s honestly my favorite thing to do. So speedball is this combo soccer and ultimate frisbee game that we play pretty much every week in the summer and fall. With our unprecedented weather this past week though, we had our inaugural game. We set up cones and play on this delightful field. So many good memories here.
What a week!
March 25, 2012 4 Comments
Thinking through life. Thinking through myself.
So many thoughts swirling around. That seems to be a trait of mine–all this thought swirling. Jerry often tells me that I just need to turn my brain off. I’m sure he’s right. He usually is. But it’s just a huge part of how I’m wired. I need to mentally process and prepare for things.
And then I usually end up daydreaming into the future. It’s helpful and hurtful. Sometimes it inhibits me from being truly present in the moment and appreciating the day that I have before me.
Nevertheless, I spend a lot of time thinking.
I often wonder how my faith, my relationship with Jesus, really influences my daily life. I wonder how it should be influencing it. I don’t know many things for sure, but I know that Jesus is alive and active in this world. We live in a world where experience is considered a strong indicator of truth or reality and Bible aside, history aside, my personal experience is undeniable. I have seen this thread of protection and provision woven throughout my life in various ways and there are these supernatural spike moments where something crazy, out of this world happens. Either to me or someone I know. And in my core I just can’t deny that. Regardless of all the questions and the skepticism, at times, I just can’t deny that. I’ve seen it with my own eyes.
But the challenge comes in knowing what to really do with that on a daily basis.
In the mundane.
I don’t feel called to a life of usual church “ministry” either here in the States or abroad and I know I am not wired to be a particularly vocal “evangelist” in the typical sense of the word, telling people at the grocery store about Jesus. I’ve struggled with that one for a long time and felt self-conscious and like an inferior Christian at times because of it, but it’s just not me.
The sermon at my church a couple weeks ago was about evangelism and how it can take different forms. I appreciated it for many reasons, but especially because it spoke to people like me, people who believe that relationship should be the catalyst for building trust and showing someone the importance and need for faith. My own personal actions, my consistency, my loyalty, my hope should speak louder than words. Over the long haul. My pastor called this “relational evangelism.” That makes sense to me. It jives with who I am.
The challenge for me comes in knowing when in that relationship to be more vocal, to show a little boldness. I definitely still have some timidity in that regard, some embarrassment even. And that’s not good. Personality aside, that’s just not good. For me it’s not so much the action of whether or not I am actively talking about Jesus–to the person at the bank or a longtime friend–but the reason behind it. And right now I know that I often don’t bring it up because of this insecurity, this fear or timidity or shame.
It’s just not good.
And it makes no sense, really.
If I believe in the power, awe, and life-giving nature of Jesus (which I really do!) and if I care about these people with whom I am building relationships (which I really do!), then why am I so hesitant to share? And why is my daily life not oriented more in that direction? And I suppose, more importantly, what would it even look like for my daily life to be oriented that way, to be seen and lived through this lens of the power of Jesus and the centrality of faith when I am never going to be a super outspoken evangelist outside of a relationship with someone? I know it’s about being loyal and being consistent and building trust, but I feel like there is more that I am missing. I feel sometimes a little aimless in my daily life these days. Like, what am I even doing aimless. Yeah, I work and save money and spend time with friends and take care of daily life tasks, but what am I doing with any eternal purpose?
I guess what I want is to find this (elusive) balance between being content in who I am as a non-traditional-not-gonna-be-preaching-it-from-the-street-corner-evangelist and yet knowing when and how to challenge myself and step out in boldness and faith. If I believe that this faith thing is the most important, only eternal element of this current life, it should be impacting my daily life in much more tangible ways. It should be coloring my daily life and daily decisions more than it currently is.
I’m just not really sure what that looks like for me.
March 17, 2012 4 Comments
Hey y’all! I got my camera back all patched up and ready to go!
Evidently not everyone is quite as excited as I am by this development.
No more privacy!
No more talking, eating, or sleeping without the fear that a camera will be snapping in my face!
Well, nevertheless, we spent the weekend in the great state of Maine celebrating this fella’s birthday with some lovely friends.
It was warm (relatively speaking), restful, and full of lots of games and food, as all Maine trips typically are.
SO thankful for good friends who inspire and encourage!
Happy Birthday Josh! Hope to celebrate many more with you!
March 11, 2012 2 Comments